This time I'm really not going . No matter how my friends push me to go. I can't deal with it going to a baby shower anymore. The questions that comes out from friends. I don't know how to answer them anymore. I'm the only one without a kid among the friends that are attending. They bring all the baby's and kids there. No one knows my problems I have to deal with. When they ask the questions I have tears in my eyes. I been crying to sleep. Sometimes I'm not able to sleep cause I'm thinking to much about my problems. I have to write if I dont I'm going to have a panic attack cause I can't tell anyone. I can't keep it bottled up. I probably won't experience having a baby in the future the way things are going.
A friend has mention in the past maybe me and my husband are not compatible having a baby. She said hot water and hot water will stay hot. Cold water and cold water will stay cold. Cold water and hot water will mix and it becomes warm. I still don't understand what she meant by that. It's a Asian thing. She still saying it if we are both hot water it won't happen.
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