Happy and upset!

I'm happy for my friend she just had another baby. She and her husband just posted it up on Facebook. I'm upset cause she younger then me and she has two already.

I would like to be call a mom one day.

I would like to be call a mom one day. I want to have a baby but my marriage is not going right. Do you have a baby to solve your marriage? No cause what if you do end up having a baby and the marriage still not working out. I don't want to have a kid and the parents are split up. It's going to be really hard for the kid. I don't want to be a single parent either.He doesn't even try cause he said he not even going to come to NYC for 2 months. Is that why I ended up liking someone else. I'm getting old I don't want it to be to late.

I wanted to call him.

Parents should teach their kids to behave.

I have notice parents don't teach there kids how to behave. For example this 2 year was throwing food all over and the parents just laugh about. Doesn't even yell nothing. 2 example there was another kid he was saying something in creole. His mom was laughing. I ask his mom what is he saying she said he telling me to kiss his butt. Then he call me a bitch and he was running around hitting the customer. The mom was laughing and said nothing. Are parents afraid to spank their kids. I think so. Growing up if I did something like that pop in the mouth. These days kids are spoil. They don't understand parents have to work for their money. That's why they have food and shelter. I see kids like to waste food to. If they take a bite and don't like it they throw it out. It's not the same when I was growing up.

Thanks goodness evil lady is not here today!

Thank goodness my brother's mother is not here in the house today. Peace and quiet. When I saw my brother I ask him where did he go while his parents was arguing. He said he plug his ear with his finger and hide under the covers. He said he still could hear them yelling at each other. I stood there and shook my head. He said why are they always arguing. I didn't know how to reply to him. I ask him to ask out dad. Sad that he has to go through this.

Very rude people

I came into work today and my coworkers are whisperings I'm almost 40 how come I don't have kids yet. Is there something wrong with her. Omfg They don't know what's going on in my life. Don't f$&@ judge me. I could hear them it's not like they are whispering in a low voice. Could this day be over already.

Omfg my step is so evil.

She arguing with my father today. Telling him the son I have with you is garbage cause it came from my father. How could she say something like that while your son is sitting there. How could a mother be bad mouthing her own flesh and blood. She really don't have any maternal instinct. No parents should say bad things about there kid in front of them. I'm hiding in my room under the covers and I could hear the yelling and screaming. My brother is right there. I feel bad for him cause the parents don't get along. I don't have a normal family. Smh

I never spoke to anyone about adoption!

I never spoke to anyone about adopting a child only on this blog. It's weird someone mention it to me.    I would like to have my own kids. It's different when you have your own. The child would have your genes. They would look like you. I would like to have a kid but its not the right time.

I had to take care of my brother today.

I thought I was going to have a easy day today. Nope I didn't. I end up taking care of my brother all day and had to work. I didn't have to go in early this morning. So I had to make my brother breakfast got him lunch. Later in the afternoon I had to pick him up. He made me play soccer. My legs and ankles was hurting already. It hurts more now after running and kicking. I'm going to be really sore tomorrow. I ask him who is responsibly for you? He said my parents. He knows I know. What a long day.

Why are kids so bad.

I thought I was bad when I was younger. Kids these day are worst. Parents are always working and don't have time to watch there kids. They don't know who they are hanging out with. Some kids just want to fit in and they end up doing stupid things. They start at a early age talking back to you with a fresh mouth. Some kids have no respect for there elders. This week I saw a little boy steal money from his mom wallet to go buy something and he was only 5 yrs old. The parents have to correct that.   I can't believe 9 yrs old are talking about humping. Omfg I cant believe it. My ears was starting to bleed. Smh. They are starting to early. Will I be able to handle this if I have a kid? I don't think I will be able to handle it. Fresh mouth talking about sex, stealing etc..

My brother said!!

My brother said if our stepbitch leave this month and drop off my brother. He said he will try to help me if he could. I'm worry she might pull a this stunt. Making me responsible for my brother. I don't want the responsibility cause she the mother. He said its not our responsibility. It's the parents. I know that and my brother knows that. Does the mom know that. I don't know how would I handle it. My other brother will be back soon. I have to watch him to. To make sure he doesn't do anything stupid!! Why do I have to be the oldest and only girl. I get bitch at about everything from my father what my bad brother does. My good brother said anything I do I always get bitch at. Nothing pls my father. 


I'm having a crappy Friday night. I ate something that I'm allergic to. Don't have my allergie meds. I got a rash now. Should I just drive back to my father house to get it or walk to the 24 hr cvs. 

How the hell you left your keys inside.

I can't believe it. How the hell you left the keys inside. While your son is sleeping inside. You are very stupid lady. You should of remember to put your keys inside your pocket. You know the door is in auto lock. Smh!! Lucky someone has the key!

Why do people have kids and end up abusing them.

I was reading a article in the paper about these parents locked their 5 year son in a closet. They starve him so bad you could see his ribs and vertebrae. Why do something like that to a kid. Why have kids if you going to end up abusing them. I really don't understand some parents. I hate reading stories   this one. Some people want kids and it hasn't happen yet. Some people do have kids and end up abusing them!!smh

Born

My parents gave me a Chinese name as my legal name. They forgot to put down my English name. All my life in school they always made fun of my name. I got so annoyed people couldn't pronounce it correct. Till this day people still can't pronounce it. There's a lot of my friends doesn't even know I have a Chinese name. When they found out they were shock. I don't tell people. I'm going to have to fix my name legally. I'm the only one in the family my name is mess up on my birth certificate. Wonderful it's going to cost me couple hundred dollars to have it done. To much to do.

Should I call? 

I can't decide. 

Responsibilities

My brother call me and told me my stepbitch should take Responsibilities of her son. He said its not my responsibilities it's not my kid. I told him I know but I am a adult and if his mom not around. I have to take care of him. He only a little kid. I told my brother he might have to help me if he could. If his mom does pull this stunt on me. He said he going to think about it. I hope he gives me a hand. 

Responsibilities

It takes two to have a kid. You have responsibilities when you have a kid. My dad is leaving soon. I ask him would his wife drop my brother off and leave him with me. So she could follow him. He said maybe. I said wonderful. What am I going to do? How am I going to take him to school? I got to be at work really early. I hope she doesn't pull a stunt like that. You never know with her. She did it before 5 years ago. She left him with me and went on vacation. It was a handful I had to take care of my brother, grandma and the family business. That was a lot of work that year. I'm worry she might pull this stunt. WHAT AM I GOING TO!!!!