Pregnant

Omfg today I was not in the mood today. Everything annoyed me today. To make things worse this lady I was talking to. She ask me if I was pregnant omg. I told her no I'm not. I just have a big gut cause I'm eating junk again. She went on and on. She said she never notice it before. She a really nice lady Omg I didn't flip out in her. I just kept a fake smile on my face. Another lady over heard the conversation she said that was so wrong for her to ask me that question. If your're not sure don't ask.
After that question today i was really in a piss of mood!!

Kids don't listen!!!

I thought I drove my parents up there wall when I was younger. The kids are worst this generation. I have notice parents screaming at them and the kids are answering back. I have seen kids hiting there parents back. If the parents punish them they would say im calling the cops. Thats why alot of parents don't  give kids a spanking. If I had hit back I would of got a beating. Parents would tell the kids not to do one thing,they do the other thing to make things worst. I heard a little girl said the f word today. I was so surprised. I couldn't believe my ears. Do I want to have a kids in this generation I don't know.

I hate the summer when kids are out of school cause you have some parents they don't care when their kids are running in the street. Either they are working or they are a single parent. They don't have time for them. No wonder kids get themself in trouble. It's only the beginning of summer.

Here we go again

I was annoyed all day yesterday and today about other things. I have to hear behind my back. Why doesn't she have a kid. Does she want one? She getting old and she won't be able to have one. Then they said in front of my face why don't you rub the pregnant friend maybe you get lucky. I kinda wanted to scream at that point. It's no one busy if I have one or not. It's my choice. I told them I don't want one now!!! They kind of shut up. How much longer do I have to go through this crap behind my back! So annoyed i wanted to have a drink till I get drunk. Can't do that got to get up early for work!  Maybe one drink won't hurt. So stress out I'm smoking a pack a day.

I get annoyed when people ask me!

I get annoyed when they always ask me the same question over and over again. I have notice some of my friends doesn't ask anymore. They just stop. I have some friends they always ask cause I'm getting old and Im waiting to long. I understand why he could be mad if I always ask him the same question over and over again. I get annoyed when someone ask the same question again and again. I do ask a lot of question. How do u get to know a person if you don't ask question!

Responsibility

Meaning to responsibility- the state or fact having a duty to deal with something or having control over someone.

She really need to learn responsibility. It's her son and she likes to drop him off in the house. She doesn't say anything about her leaving. She left without a word. It's not my responsibility. Someone has to tell her the meaning to responsibility.

A friend of my mother

Every time I see my mom friend. His grand kids comes running and hugging me. He has said to me many times you are so good to the kids. Why don't i have one? I keep a smile on my face and tell him it's not the right time. It's so uncomfortable when he asking me these questions. It's weird when he ask me that. I was surprised when he first ask me that question. Why don't I have a kid. Do I have to explain to every one why.

Ok I got a taste of my own medicine someone asking me the same question over and over again. Now I know why he gets mad when I keep asking him that!

I got the invite in the mail today!

I got the invite in the mail today for another baby shower. I told the girls I'm busy that day and I can't make it. They still send me the invite. Very annoyed with her. I have to reply back to the mail telling her not going to go. No matter what I am not going !

I got invited to another baby shower!

This time I'm really not going . No matter how my friends push me to go. I can't deal with it going to a baby shower anymore. The questions that comes out from friends. I don't know how to answer them anymore. I'm the only one without a kid among the friends that are attending. They bring all the baby's and kids there. No one knows my problems I have to deal with. When they ask the questions I have tears in my eyes. I been crying to sleep. Sometimes I'm not able to sleep cause I'm thinking to much about my problems. I have to write if I dont I'm going to have a panic attack cause I can't tell anyone. I can't keep it bottled up. I probably won't experience having a baby in the future the way things are going.
A friend has mention in the past maybe me and my husband are not compatible having a baby. She said hot water and hot water will stay hot. Cold water and cold water will stay cold. Cold water and hot water will mix and it becomes warm.  I still don't understand what she meant by that. It's a Asian thing. She still saying it if we are both hot water it won't happen.

I shouldn't have made a comment!

I was checking my Facebook page today. A friend of mine post up she having another baby. I congrats her and she and other's ask me when am I having one. What could I say on Facebook. I said when its the right time it will happen.i shouldn't have wrote anything. Then this won't happen! Smh very upset

Very annoyed today

I knew I shouldn't have gone to the baby shower. I should of had a better excuse saying I couldn't go. I got sucker into going. They ask so many questions about how I'm getting old and I should start having a family. I knew this shit was going to happen. No one there knows what going on in my life. One of the girls assume she ask once and she stop asking.While I was there i wanted to screamed. Please Stop asking!!! Why would someone have a baby shower at the beach? I forgot to put on sunblock on.

I got sucker into going

My friends are bitching tonight. How I'm going to show up and not stay for the baby shower. I finally said I will go and not stay for the whole day. I get to sleep late tomorrow. I go to the baby shower then I'm heading to work. In the afternoon. I hope no one ask question tomorrow. One of the girls ask me today. Is something wrong. I ask why she said i look like I have a lot of things on my mind. I just told yes I'm thinking to much.

Do not have a baby?

My best friend said do not have a baby if I'm having problems in my marriage. I understand what she saying. It doesn't solve the marriage. I don't want to be a single parent. At first she said have a baby already she didn't know what was going in until now. She see how bad it is. The more she notice it and I don't have to tell her. She ask how much longer am I going to deal with this. She wouldn't have put up with the crap I'm putting up. She said the longer he stay away my feelings are going to go away for him. I didn't tell her but my feelings are going away for him.

I'm up way to early. I have to much things on my mind. I'm going to  need lots of coffee.

Baby shower

My friend's baby shower is this weekend. I told her family I can't make it. I told her sister I drop of the present. I really don't wanna go and I don't want them asking me questions. I haven't been in a good mood lately.

Why do pre teens have a fresh mouth!

Omfg my god daughter came with her mom today. Her mom been telling me her daughter has a fresh mouth and very disrespectful. She ready to give her a spanking. She came to visit me today. Her mouth is so fresh her mom was warning her. She wasn't like that when she was younger. Is it from her friends. She only like that in front of me and her mom. She really shy when she meets new people. I don't recall growing up being fresh at her age. If I was to my parents they would had whip my ass! My parents did say growing up I have a truck drivers mouth. I never curse in front of them but they heard me. What happen to the sweet little girl she was?

I hate when summer is here cause kids are out of school and they are running around the street causing trouble.

Watch your kids

I'm waiting for the light to cross the street. I saw this little girl ready to cross the street. Her mom was in the middle of the block. Shouldn't the mom be holding the daughter hand. Yes but she didn't look like she was paying any attention. We had to tell the girl to stop and wait for  her mom. The mom was yelling her other daughter. If you can't control one why have another.

If you don't know how to raise your kids!

Why have kids if you don't know to raise your kids. I was doing my errands today. While I'm on line this lady she was holding one baby and had 2 rug rats running and screaming. She didn't even know how to hold her baby. She was holding the baby like a doll. The other 2 was running around. She was  screaming too of her lungs. They weren't listening to her. One of therm came over and told her to shut the f up. The people on line was shaking there head. I was having a headache cause she was screaming in my ears. If you can't control one. Why have another!

Stop whispering

I get to work today and I hear my co works whispering day I'm going to the bathroom to much. Am I prego. Why don't one of us ask her if she is? Stupid bitches I'm not and I could hear you. You lady's are not whispering. Wtf kind of people do I have to deal with these days. Stupid bitchies getting on my nerves today. I am cranky today didn't get enought sleep last night.

Stupid teenagers

Teenagers don't know how to respect their elders. They give no respect. They are very disrespectful. They curse at their grandparents,yelled at them. I know this boy he so disrespectful he was saying stupid things about Asian people. I wanted to pop him in the mouth. I didn't cause I know his mom and grandmother,aunt,uncle etc. I told his grandmother his grandmother and uncle wanted to pop him in the mouth. I blame the parents cause they don't teach the kids how to act these days. I know I didn't acted like that. I didn't disrespect any elders.