Another friend

I just bump into one friend on the street. She pregnant again she having the fourth one. I'm surprised cause she said she was done with her third child. She ask me how did I know. I told her she a glow on her face. She said she hasn't told any of our friends yet. Another friend pregnant.

Got invited to a baby shower

I really don't wanna go. Why cause the girls and their parents will ask when am I next. I don't wanna hear any of it. I'm going to get her a present and not go. I just don't wanna deal with it.

Future!

My best friend said she don't see my marriage being fix. She said if I stay I'm going to hate him more.  She said I'm going to regret I stayed in the marriage. She ask why didn't we talk about having kids when we were dating. I know I mention I want kids. I just want one at least. I'm having this feeling he  doesn't care for them cause he told my friend it's my decision. Why would it be my decision when it takes to. I'm more worried now cause I really don't want to be single again. It does seem right now I'm single.  I hate the dating scene. There are not many nice guys out there. These days I'm not even thinking about calling my husband. There nothing to talk about. It's more a yelling on the phone. Should I move forward? Is this my future? Going to be single and not have the experience having a baby.

Rush home

I haven't seen my baby brother over 3 weeks. I miss him. I rush home to see if he was home yet. He wasn't. I had to go back to work. He staying for the night.


Wow today I got a 12 dollar tip from a customer.

Another friend!

Last night I found out another friend is having a baby. She separated from her husband. She having another person baby. She told me her and husband wasn't meant to have kids together and be together.  She has been dating this new guy for only 5 months. I know they been married for  9yrs and trying nothing happen. Why did she tell me this? She doesn't know what's going on in ny relationship.She also ask me when am I having one. I told her when it happens. When it's going to happen I really don't know. Does she know?

I'm up for work. I hope I don't have to deal with mr creepy old man today.

Friend!

A close friend ask me today when am I planning to start a family. Am I trying? I told her we don't even see each. I told I don't know. When it happens. She ask me did I go to the doctor and have it check out. Yes I did. She ask me is it your husband. I said I really don't know. She knows I don't see him as much. She knows I'm having problems with him. She ask does he want kids. I really don't know. She said I'm not getting younger and the older you are the harder it gets. Yeah I know I'm not getting any younger. I got to stop smoking too. How do I stop when I have to many problems in my life. She said if its not working out with my husband fix it or find someone new who could have kids and be there for me. I told her there's not to many nice guys out there. She said I need a Spanish man in my life. I just laugh.

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day. I couldn't even go and visit her today cause I have to work all day. I couldn't leave and drive there cause it would take me 4 hours to drive back and forth. I wish my mom was here. Maybe my brother wouldn't be the way he is now! I miss her a lot!!! 

People always complain about there mom I always tell them be grateful your mom is here with you. Treat her good everyday cause you don't know when it's her time to go. Remember the things she would do for you. When she gone you will miss it all. I miss my mom complaining about me coming  home late. I miss her waiting up for me when I did come home late. I miss her yelling at me! It's really hard when your mom not around. I have no one to talk to about the problems I'm having. 

 

Mother's Day

I don't like when Mother's Day come up. Why? I miss my mom! It hasn't been good since she passed away. Mother's Day should be everyday not just one day out of the year. My mother was a really mom she treated all my friends like her kids. No matter how sick she was she always help me and my brothers. Everyone should treat there  mother nice everyday.
Today the clients was telling me have a nice weekend and mother's day. I told them I'm not a mother yet. They would ask question why aren't you a mother yet. I don't know was my answer. How do you explain something when you don't have a answer for it.