Here we go again

I was annoyed all day yesterday and today about other things. I have to hear behind my back. Why doesn't she have a kid. Does she want one? She getting old and she won't be able to have one. Then they said in front of my face why don't you rub the pregnant friend maybe you get lucky. I kinda wanted to scream at that point. It's no one busy if I have one or not. It's my choice. I told them I don't want one now!!! They kind of shut up. How much longer do I have to go through this crap behind my back! So annoyed i wanted to have a drink till I get drunk. Can't do that got to get up early for work!  Maybe one drink won't hurt. So stress out I'm smoking a pack a day.